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I met my ex-husband when I was 17
We were together 17 years
It was the first time I was ever single in my adult life
It was my choice to end the relationship
It was not how I envisioned my life to be
It was more about rebuilding the infrastructure of my life
There were a lot of things I depended on my husband for
There was a lot of trauma that happened for me post-divorce than within the relationship
It was important for me to heal and go through the healing journey
I forced myself to look at it and heal through it so that I don’t take that with me into the future
I cried a lot
I just kept getting triggered and triggered and triggered
You keep thinking I got this and then you get triggered and you’re just a complete mess
Feeling though all the feelings, allowing myself to be angry
When the timing is right I end up where I need to be
I didn’t run away from anything
I’m still figuring things out
To really learn who I am and to discover myself, I had to rebuild myself up and get in touch with who I am
I’m very much into energy, energy work, consciousness
That spiritual side of me go put away
I was shut down in so many places I didn’t even realize I was shut down in
I had to get back in touch with my feminine
I felt how separated I was from myself
How do I put myself back together because I was broken
I would meet with different energy healers
I was learning about myself
Having the ability and a safe space to move in a certain way put me back in touch with my femininity
I created my own roadmap and followed it
I redid my closet and got rid of as much black as I could
I am so content being alone, not lonely but alone
I love walking into my house and it’s just mine
I love my space
I was so shocked by how many people showed up to support me
I remember just bursting into tears
I felt supported, no one’s going to let me fall
Figure out who you are
This is your moment in time when you are raw and broken and putting yourself back together
You can forgive when you are ready to forgive
I felt so gratefulness for him and the lessons he taught me
Don’t force yourself into anything, just keep focusing on you and the rest will fall into place