It was a long moment of silence from my partner.
I thought maybe I should bring her flowers and show her that I care.
Over the course of time she finally messaged me telling me that it’s over.
The immediate feeling was a feeling of relief that I had some closure there.
You start to wonder how deep do those lies go.
I had some panic attacks thinking about how much harm I had done to her.
The more I thought about everything she did tell me it started unraveling.
The thing I blame myself for is not paying as close of attention to the inconsistencies in her behavior.
I am polyamorous.
The way I set up my relationships I don’t have a primary.
I would rather a person be honest with me than to be faithful. The communication has to be there.
It’s kind of selfish to expect one person to be everything for you.
One of the things I like most about polyamory is there are different levels of intimacy. It doesn’t mean I’ve having sex with all of them. In fact, most of them I don’t.
It’s good to remember there’s lots of wonderful people out there in the world. It’s just a matter of you opening your eyes and seeing where they are and seeing how beautiful they are.